Jesus Next to the Toilet

Happy Are You Poor: “...it hurts so much not to have attained the very reason for his existence, an immersion in God, that he uses things as a narcotic...”

For so many years I pursued pleasure at all costs. Drinking alcohol until I blacked out and woke up sleeping in my own vomit. Smoking weed until I vomited and passed out by the toilet bowl from dehydration. Acting out sexually until I injured myself. I did this because I thought it was joy, though there was no joy in pursuing it. Slipping deeper and deeper into the gutter. Being told by the world that this or that should make me happy, but not telling me that happiness is not joy and joy is what I long for. And so I slipped to my bottom and met Jesus there.

He sat with me in my vomit and beside the toilet bowl, with my wounded body, and whispered in my ear, I love you.

So I crawled over to Him, and He got me on my unsteady feet and led me back to the Sacraments.

There I found joy.

And now I seek out those still in their vomit, with their sores, laid out next to the toilet, waiting for someone to lift them and walk with them away from the empty happiness this world offers toward the joy found only in Christ and the Sacraments of His Church.

So many don’t know that there is anything but this world. They unknowingly wait for someone to show them the way to joy in Christ.

They’ve been told it doesn’t exist, so when they first meet someone who carries the key to joy in their heart, they reject it out of fear and confusion.

They seek the reason for their existence but have been told there is none, so they stop searching.

These are who I am called to seek out. These are who I am called to befriend. These are my people, the ones I still am in many ways and may always be.

Happy Are You Poor “...he is dreadfully superficial but is unaware of it. He is so out of touch with his deep self and his inner aching void that he has no idea of the grossness of his mind. He needs prayer more than argument, for he cannot understand the things of the spirit...”

Human-Written, AI Spekll-Checked 5/29/21

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